Hi, my name is Kim and I like to work.
There I said it. I wish I could say I am not defined by my career, that there's more to me than what I do at work, but well, I can't. I have been pulling in a paycheck since I was 15 and that's just who I am. I am very, very thankful that we are able to survive on one salary, but it makes me depressed when I think about things we'd be able to do if I was also working. For the first...oh, I don't know...6 months, it wasn't so bad, but one year on and the lack of employment is really starting to bring me down. It's not just the money though, it's more the feeling that my brain is rotting away.
Please don't tell me I should just enjoy it, because I don't. I sit here and feel totally useless for most of the day. I'm not crafty or oh my god I'd start an Etsy shop in a heartbeat. The one thing I love to do is DIY stuff, but I can't really do anything in this flat nor do I want to do anything to this flat. Short of becoming a house painter, I'm not really sure how I could make a career out of my love of DIY.
Yes, I can keep blaming my lack of work on the crap economy, but I have to also blame it on what seems to be my poor interviewing skills. In one year I have manage to score two interviews (yes, I'll blame that on the crap economy) and while the first position was a bit out of my league, there is no reason why I shouldn't have gotten the second position. Trust me, I am furious with myself! Now I have plans to change things up if I manage to get another interview in this town, but who knows if I'll ever get that chance.
Now, I have ideas and I'm trying to think outside the box, but it is all a little daunting. I mean, if I can't succeed in an interview in my field, how am I going to convince someone that I'm a good candidate for a career change with their company?? Who knows if any of this will actually come about and I just hope I'm given the opportunity to make a case for myself.
Thankfully, the weather is a bit nicer today and I'll be able to get out an exercise off some of this angst!
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